A reporter from the Las Vegas Review Journal asked me several months ago what my thoughts were of my child Zoe that I named because it meant freedom in Swahili. I was also asked to give a detailed description of my daily life in maximum security feet from death row!

I'll be honest, the birth of Zoe changed my life forever. With the inception of Zoe, even as a zygote, I was an attentive father and played music(Dreamland a techno beat)to foster neural alignment of Zoe's brain...the neurons and dendrites and ganglionic development to enhance maybe I/Q This took place for 14-18 hours daily for months!
I personally took charge of medical care of my wife to ensure there would not be complications during our pregnancy.

I had an ultrasound done of Zoe's development in her second trimester in Mountainview , California, and the attending physician was incredible. The technician with the ultrasound was prophetic with Zoe's exact due date of October 25, 1996 at around 5:30 AM. At Saint Luke's in Tempe, Arizona. Cheryl and I lived in Scottsdale, but Tempe for Zoe's birth was based on finances.

All of my photographs of Zoe's birth including her placenta and video of Zoe gestation from the ultrasound are in police evidence either in Las Vegas or Phoenix. Hopefully, someone will e-mail Zoe of the trove of precious photographs and video!

I thought that Zoe was the neatest baby and we as a couple elected to breast feed Zoe to offer her the best.

I'll be honest, after Zoe was born other parents would DUMP their children with us and with one mother would not supply us with diapers! All children had a bad oder to them except Zoe, who smelled sweet like sugar cookies!

A fascinating thing with Zoe was that she slept between Cheryl and I in the bed and every morning Zoe would be snuggled(I am now currently overwhelmed with emotions and crying) under my armpit and our dog named "Baby" (an Aussie mixed with a Blue healer) that was trained for 3 months at Woodman Kennels in Colorado Springs, Co. would sleep at my feet! All of my family were females, including the dog, Baby!

We actually placed around the neck of our dog a birthing blanket, so the dog would be familiar with our new daughter!

Cheryl did drop Zoe a few times off the bed that resulted in a "thud".Obviously, I was concerned for Zoe and i assumed most of her care except changing her diapers. Costco and Sams Club did not offer diapers for Zoe's weight category, but Target did give me 20% off of all store items including sales, because both of my Spycraft store locations in Arizona (Phoenix/Mesa)were next to a Target and all Target employees were given a discount at my stores. McDonald's, too!

The day Zoe was born, I left Cheryl at the hospital and went to Babyworld and purchased about $1200.00 in baby stuff. Unfortunately, I became aware that I upset my wife just a little bit because she wanted to select some of my purchases.

I bought a lot of learning toys and black and white graphic prints because babies are believed to only see in black and white for months after their birth...chromatic vision.

I was asked if I was aware that Zoe might have a cochlear device. If you read this Zoe, we used a prescription vitamin from the OBGYN located in Capitola or Saratoga, California, and years later there was a warning that the advertised vitamin K supplement that was advertising benefits was actually causing birth defects to include hearing!

Zoe you rarely cried and only when your Mom and I were separated from you!

I love you so much! I am crying profusely, shaking, and my nose is congested!

I was informed that the assistant district attorney that I was having an affair with in Phoenix assisted with your adoption. I was never given any decent details while incarcerated.

What I noted of you right away, is that you were a giving baby. And what I mean is that when you played with other babies you would offer your toys to them. A 7 month old kid offering her toys...you would extend your arm and hand to another offering food or toys!

Zoe you do have a brother that is slightly younger than you.
I am forbidden to even know his name!

I remember when I took you into the bathtub at the hotel (Weston) while your mother and friend(Doug Stafford who owned the Sub Factory Shop) went to a Rush concert and I filled the bathtub with lukewarm water and placed you by my feet. Then I would lay you on my chest where you would "Coo" to the rhythm of my heart and fall a sleep. Zoe, honey, you made me feel so loved and I have never experienced such gravitational (siesmic) emotions since then! Maybe I will never experience those feelings again. Thank you for the short time I was with you!

The FBI informed me in November of 2023 that you had your college degree and were into "Real estate". The Special Agent who informed me was from the Phoenix field office and her name was Hannah. She played her interrogation games, but was unaware that I was on forced psychotropics. Consequently, while I was in their interrogation room with Homeland Security standing outside the door for 12 hours, I had to have the EMT's called because the psychiatric drugs were shutting my heart off and making me confused. The agents are working on a case that can't be proven either way. I also had the ambulance waiting for me that were turned around, so I could be interrogated. I was hospitalized for 10 days after being retuned to the prison and housed on death row! I went from low custody to ultra max with no explanation.

I was taken to the emergency room last week at Florence Anthem and was advised not to take psychiatric drugs because my heart can't take it, but when I was returned, I was given double the max doses of psychiatric drugs.

I have feces thrown on me about once a month by psychotic inmates. We as a unit are pepper gassed 2x weekly and that is hell. Recently, I was informed because of my prescribed outlandish regiment of psychotropics, I need a heart operation